Two weeks after finding out that we lost one of our twins we had another ultrasound to check on our surviving twin b. Two weeks ago I had absolutely no desire to go to this ultrasound appointment. I wasn't sure if they were still going to show me both babies or just the surviving twin. If they only showed me the one, I didn't know how that would make me feel after seeing both of my beautiful babies growing within me. It took me about 10 days to emotionally digest the loss of another baby. I never though that this would happen to us when it happened in December and there was absolutely no thought in my mind that this would happen again.
A couple of days before this ultrasound I was ready and now very much wanting to see our baby. I was very calm and at ease on the way to our appointment. As soon as the ultrasound began, I was looking away from the screen. I finally turned my head to see our beautiful baby (twin b). As soon as my eyes hit the screen, baby b put on a big dance routine. It was the happiest dance that I have ever witnessed. We laughed & cried as our baby seemed to be telling us "look at me, I'm happy & healthy!"
I have now graduated from the fertility specialist and next week I see my regular ob/gyn for my first prenatal visit with him this pregnancy. I'm hoping that this next step will make things start to feel like a regular/normal pregnancy. I'm excited and hopeful to now start being able to share beautiful & happy stories of a pregnancy journey with a very happy ending.
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